Well it is about 5 hours until I will be getting ready to go to bed and I am starting to have some struggles with this fast. I do not feel hungry, or feel the NEED to eat, but I sure WANT to!
My husband is away on a business trip, my brother (who lives with us) is out with a friend, and I am left sitting here with a baby that will not know the difference if I decide to stuff my face, or not. I find it interesting that I have not had any problems sticking to this fast when I have people around me cooking food and eating, but as soon as I am alone my instinct is to go order a pizza and hot wings and have a lonely little pig-out that nobody would ever know about! Of course, I would know, the scale would know, and I am sure that my husband would figure it out eventually, but at the moment that doesn't seem to matter to my brain.
I called my husband and told him that I feel like being a little CHEATER and he reminded me of something very important that I am hoping will carry me through this : If I do this all the way through and I don't screw up I will be back at the weight that I want to be! Of course that is the most appealing idea about this whole fast to me. Yes, I do want to be healthy, for sure, but most of all I want to be drop dead GORGEOUS again. I am going to go drink some more juice and have some "me" time and think about how awesome I will look. Yes, it is vain, but if it keeps me going, then I am just gonna go with it!
There is nothing wrong with vanity as long as its going to get you healthy!!! Keep up the hard work! I'm rooting for you!
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