Every night I ask my husband what he wants for dinner and every night he tells me that he doesn't know. Nothing sounds good. We have whatever we want, whenever we want it. Meat is a must at every meal and dessert is not saved for a special occasion. I think that when you are asking what somebody wants for DESSERT and they aren't interested in anything because they have had it all so much, but they are still sure that they want something- it is time to re-evaluate your habits.
I woke up this morning and decided that I wanted an omelet. Two eggs, onion, tomato, zucchini, mushrooms, a slice of cheese, salsa, sour cream and a glass of milk to wash it down. By the way, that is a mere 600 calories, just in case you were wondering. My son was ready for his snack shortly after that, so I went back into the kitchen and noticed that there was a King Size package of Reese's Peanut-butter Cups on the counter that nobody had claimed... Well what the hell, why not? I ate one and it didn't really taste that good to me, but I figured that if I had made it this far I might as well polish them off. After devouring the fat filled candy, I decided to read the packaging. 400 calories, 200 calories from fat. So, it is before 10 a.m. and I have had 1000 of my recommended 1200 calories a day. Oops.
So what, other than I am obviously a fat-ass, is my point? I have become a spoiled little brat. I had a successful juice fast and lost 40lbs, tried another one and threw in the towel siting various reasons (none of which were completely valid), and a month later I have found myself right back in my old habits. Miraculously I have only gained 6lbs, but I also recognize that a) 6lbs of weight gain in a month is crazy, and b) that number will keep increasing if I don't change something soon.
The last attempt at a fast left me pissed off for the most part. I was trying to save money and therefore I was not juicing the right way. I was trying to get by with drinking 2 quarts of juice a day with water to fill in the hunger gaps and I realize that as a human being, I need more than that to stay healthy while fasting. I ended up angry, hungry, weak, resentful towards my family for eating, and had the constant urge to cheat (which I did a lot of). I have decided to give this one more go, but the right way this time.
I am not going to try and cheap out this time. I am going to spend the time and money on this fast that I deserve. Tax season is a pretty damn good time to do this because everybody ends ups with a little extra change in their pocket. I will use mine to fund this fast. Usually I get some crazy gift for my husband, or we go on a vacation but this time I am going to be a selfish bitch and splurge to get myself healthy again! Valentines day is in a couple of days, and I already have a hot date so I will wait until Friday February 15th to run headlong into this, but I feel good about doing it this time around.
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