Well it is the end of day 7 of my juice fast and today was a little bit difficult!
Between going shopping with my friend and having that take longer than expected and picking my husband up from work and having to go to the store, I did not end up having sufficient amounts of juice to keep satisfied.
My husband decided that he did not want to cook dinner for himself tonight and asked if we could just grab him some fast food. I said yes, but the first thing he wanted was fried chicken, which made my stomach snarl and writhe like I have not felt in a VERY long time. I was ravenously hungry at this point in time and told him that we were in no way going anywhere near fried chicken or I would blow my fast. He decided on burritos from a fast food joint and I didn't think that was going to be a problem until the food was in the car. I honestly almost turned the car around and ordered food for myself, said screw it and spent the rest of my life being fat and miserable...
Then I realized that the only person that I would be hurting is MYSELF. I am the one who is fat and miserable, I am the one who is uncomfortable in my own skin and only I can do something about it! I reminded myself that if I want it in 53 days, it will still be there and I will be able to make the honest decision about weather I want to have it or to have something that will make me feel good and stay healthy. It was very hard to stay strong and when we got home I drank 1 quart of juice and then another 2 cups shortly after that. I am okay now and I am proud of myself for doing the hard thing and turning down a huge temptation! I feel like if I had a few more moments like this about 2 years ago I would be in a different boat than I am now, and I hope that I can eventually be strong enough to make this good decision all of the time.
I guess in a way you could say that I am finding my strength through my weakness.
SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! I can't even blog about this because my husband asked that I not....but he went out and had a freak BURGER the other night. A DOUBLE MEAT. so then he goes back on his fast,,,.and it took him 2 days to get back to his weight. Me? I've not caved in 10 days, start my period, gain weight, and it takes me the same time JUST BECAUSE I AM A WOMAN! Not because of a damn hamburger. Grrrrrr. Okay. Sorry. I had to rant. I am so proud of us!!!
ReplyDeleteAre you still exercising? You've motivated me to get out and walk. Thank you!!!!!
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU! It was so hard to not give in! I had about 10 goldfish crackers today, but that was more of a habitual action than anything. I was pouring my son a pile of them and then grabbed a couple and popped 'em in. I didn't even realize what I was doing until I swallowed them!
ReplyDeleteI am still exercising! I actually woke up at 5:30a.m. and did my stretches and went for a brisk 1/2 hour walk this morning! When I left my house it was still dark and by the time I got to the point of my route that I face east the sun was rising so I got to have a nice sunrise walk!