Day 8
Weight: 235.4lbs
Today is day eight and I have officially lost 8.2lbs, so why do I want to punch somebody in the face?
I don't want to bitch or anything, but I am very irritated. I am not hungry, but I am having cravings of everything fried. I have been doing really good with the whole not eating portion of this fast up until today. I was really hoping that my husband would come home from work and demand that I go out to dinner with him, no choice, no option and therefore no guilt on my part. He, of course, did not. But DAMN IT! I want to do it so bad. I can taste it: fried chicken. He said it yesterday and now I want it SO MUCH!
I think part of my problem is that I have not been losing weight like I did on my first two rounds with fasting. I was losing 3lbs a day and it was so rewarding that I didn't want to stop, yet somehow food always won out over my want for weight loss. I have to keep reminding myself that whatever it is that I want will still be there in 52 days. I will be happier with myself when I complete this fast than I would be if I snarfed down a whole chicken right now. By the way, that is exactly what I want to do. De-feather, bread and then fry a whole flippin' chicken and shove it down my gullet in one piece. I would be like a snake unhinging my jaw to let it all in at once.
I have had several people suggest to me that I not weigh myself every day citing several reasons that they apparently think are valid, but I can not do that. It would be worse for me to not weigh in because I would feel like I was getting nowhere and I would have thrown in the towel already. I have to see the number on the scale move or stay the same, but I can not just leave it up to guess work as to how my progress is coming along. It does not mess with my head like some people have said, and it does not make me feel bad because I know that I am working out and juicing and there is no way that I am not losing inches even if I am not losing pounds. I love getting friendly advice, but I wish people would realize that I have done this before and I know what does and does not work for me. When this particular suggestion is made to me I just want to scream. I am not an idiot! I have thought of that before and when I didn't weigh myself I lasted TWO DAYS and then I ate because I said "Fuck it, I am not getting anywhere with this. Why bother?".
I wont give in, I wont give up and eventually (hopefully in 52 days) I will look back on this and think "Silly me for wanting to give in, look how well this all turned out! You are fit and happy again!".
I'm right there with ya, Hun. I thought it was going to magically get better on Day 10....but the cravings are still there.
ReplyDeleteHere was something someone said to me today and it stuck, "stop comparing your weight loss to everyone else. Stop comparing YOURSELF to everyone else...and if you must, then compare yourself to all of the others who threw in the towel and gave up the first couple of days." You are doing good and so am I. I truly believe that detoxing from all the processed fried crap is making me even more irritable than usual. Usually, I'd buy myself a bag of fried goodness and eat my feelings away. Now I'm just forced to deal with them head on. Whew. It's not easy, but we can do this!
I went through this too. I called it emotional detox only instead of anger I was a weeping willow. Crating at anything and everything. I felt like a 2 year old at times and yet I could not stop no matter what I did! It's all part of the journey I think.
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